My Dream Wedding

When it comes to wedding, I always dream getting married without any fancy or grand ceremony. Just simply do solemnization and register our marriage. That's it.

I'd not buy a princess gown just to be wear once, no tiara, no veil, no heels. A modest cloth should be enough for me.

I'm not the type of person that love to be surrounded by hundreds of guests and know what, I can count my close friends and relatives with my fingers. So, I'll just invite them to my house warming party after getting married I guess.

Rather than spend on wedding, I'd love to spend building my dream kitchen. Better invest on something long term right?

Good Night

Turn our conversation into a song

It so calm that I listen it all night long

Put it on looping, never stop playing

Even though I am already sleeping

Pulling my blanket, tuck in my feet
Oh! This is what we call a night

Breathy voice of yours sending me off

Off to The Dream Land that I dream of

Insomnia who? I'm having deep deep sleep

Feel like WOW! I don't want to be awake

How a simple "Good night" sounds so euphonious?

Maybe it just me? I'm not so sure.

The man with wings on his head once said;
"I'm a lover, not a fighter" while rowing a boat
I think now I'm in the same boat

Pulling my blanket, tuck in my feet
Oh! This is what we call a night
"Good night"

Eat it Raw

Aku ada sejenis habit ni tau. Sejak kecik sampai besau aku dok buat lagi. Aku suka makan carrot mentah. Bukan baby carrot, tapi carrot yang gedabak keras kayu tu tau! Sebab mak dok lah kata carrot bagus untuk mata, kalau tak makan carrot nanti kena pakai spectacles macam mak. Aku pun kokaklah carrot sekeras kerasnya sebab tak mau pakai spectacles punya pasal...

Aku makan raw, tapi yang dah masak lagi lah aku makan. Kalau boleh semua dish yang mak masak aku suruh campak carrot dalam tu. Tapi takde lah sampai rendang pun letak carrot. Agaklah....

Tapi hari tu time masak dekat rumah sewa, aku pun kokaklah setengah batang carrot. Setengah lagi aku potong nak buat lauk sayur. Tiba tiba one of housemate aku tegur. Dia kata nanti sakit perut kalau makan raw carrot. Aku terkejut. Mak start bagi aku kunyah raw carot since aku 4 tahun, tapi tak pernah pula muntah or diarrhea ke apa... I just laugh it out je lah. First time dengar... 

Everyday Sahur

I'm a clumsy girl. What happened if a clumsy girl trying to eat while she is have asleep?😂

Well, I drink water out of my favorite mug. But that mug is quite big. Whenever I drink, only my chin can be seen, the rest hidden by the mug itself. Guess what happened? I'll mandi with the water that escape from it and instead enter my mouth, they decide to wet my glasses and my whole face.

And, because I don't really like to chew my food... I'll make/cut them into little pieces. When it comes to eating bread with a mug of milo, I'll tear them little by little and drop it into the mug. It's looks like. I'm giving ikan keli makan at the tasik where the aunty usually jog but now cannot jog, virus woh🙃

I turn myself into my own comedy life weh. That's what happened bila budak clumsy yang mamai cuba bersahur. 

Just Don't, I Might Cry

Don't get mad at me over things I can't control. Don't raise your voice on me when asking me questions. Don't. Just don't, I might cry after you left. I might talk back, smile and act strong, but it just the mushy me bruised in tears as soon as your shadow disappeared.

Syawal Kali Ini

Termenung lama aku. Mak berharap sangat nak balik kampung. Katanya nak kumpul "kita kita". Aku geleng. Kalau iya pun MCO dah habis, I'll never gather tak kisah among family ke, kawan ke, strangers ke. Nope.

Aku memang tak fikir nak raya pun. Call me paranoid what so ever, me being me. No shake hand, hug, laga pipi. Laga siku boleh kot😂 If setiap tahun aku lah yang decide baju raya satu family warna apa, cat rumah warna apa, langsir warna apa semua tu, not this year. Ahlantak,  we'll celebrate raya without any gathering. Lemang dodol can wait, tak rela aku take risk gadai kesihatan nyawa demi raya...

I try my best buat mak happy. Tengoklah, maybe I'll try cari COD lemang ke apa... 

It's Not Monday

It's not even Monday yet, but I feel my day so damn blue.

As soon I woke up this morning, I feel confused, I'm about to cry without any reason, I feel helpless, fatigue maybe? It quite stressful for me to start my day.

I take a shower, hopeful can calm my emotion and be normal. Nah, the shower filled with my empty thoughts. I hate empty thought, it lead me to over thinking and might make me feel anxiety bout my life.

Out of shower, I dress myself, went to living hall and turn on the tv. I guess tv can make me forget this blue day. Nope, I watch for lil bit and went to my room. I start to cry, silently. I don't know why I'm crying. I cry and hoping it can reduce my stress. But I began grow more confused.

I hate this blue day. I hate it very much