Hoping for not being a burden

All that we had here are mortal. He can take it any time when He wants to.

I might lost my sight, maybe I'll lost one or two or all of my limbs, I might can't talk anymore,  and I might can't hear anything. Or I might lost all of that at once. 

I'd never take them for granted. Let me go here and there while I can walk by myself with my legs and my sight. I'm afraid if one day I'll sit on the wheelchair, or I might need that yellow path to walk out, and I couldn't go here and there like now.

If one day I become disable, I'll try my best-est to not to bother anybody else. Me right now with all my limbs working well, with pair of ears perfectly working and eyes with sight is already a burden. Couldn't imagine what word can describe me without those...

Accepting The Real Me

So far, I've never met anyone that accepting the real me.

Here I'm talking bout me who is super clumsy, afraid of driving, loving plants, do crocheting, super forgetful, doesn't really like to eat, and lots more. 

Every morning I wake up, I try my best to be better me, to be better daughter to my mom, to be better sister to my siblings and be better friend to my friends. 

But day by day I found something went off. I lose my real self. I feell something wrong with how I live my days as me my own self.

Happiness level in my self keep draining... I feel tired. My friends keep push me to be someone who are not me.

I might forget who am I used to be.