Grab My Brushes Again

 Its been awhile since I paint. I love to draw and paint, but most of the time I draw for assignment, for event, commissions and mostly not what I really want to draw.

What make me happy is draw and paint for fun, no instruction, no yes or no, no right or wrong. Othe lil thing make me happy is I can squeeze out my paint just like I have unlimited stock of paint. I love the texture or piling paint overlaying, the brush leaving strokes texture, it just feel so satisfied.

Here is some of my papers that get my first touch after so long not mixing paint on my palette.

08 November 2020

I'm not really happy with the colors that I'm using for this piece. But the texture is quite nice. For first piece, okay but still need MORE PRACTICE. Perhaps 40 hours a day?

09 November 2020

I like how its turn like china made of tea pot set. Loving the blue hues and tones. But the leaves looks like I'm stuck somewhere in confine space. Still need practice

 

Sarap Buat Si Anak, Si Anak yang Sarap

 During me working, I skipped breakfast. Sometimes I don't even know the word lunch. All in my dictionary is hunger and dinner at home.

Imagine, from 8 am to 9 pm with stomach only filled with water once in awhile. Why do I need to work with empty stomach? Because I spend all my money on transportation. Sometimes mak would give RM10 for grab fee two ways. 

Sounds like I'm a trash kind of daughter isn't it? Going work to earn but lose even more.

But when my sis went for work, my mom would buy breakfast for her as early as she can. She would pack some lunch for her too. 

How I wish badly that I'd never existed