Back here?

 Whewww.... I had forgotten bout this so called my safe space to rant panjang panjang. Got lotta bebel here!

It is 2026, i am in my mid 20's, few years before hitting 30! and, finally I graduated with Honor, Alhamdulillah Ala Kulli Haal~ Found a job and start working before graduating, yet now I am resigning. tak ada rezeki at that place I believe. Insya'Allah, rezeki Allah tu LUAS!

I found someone, insya'Allah my future, my eternal partner, my imam. We met online, then I decide to meet face to face quite in a short time cause this gal almost 30! Ain't got time for cintan cintun for fun. She date to nikah terus! He agreed to meet and taraa almost 300 days together. I even introduce him too my family and friends.

Oh! Introduce him to my family on my birthday. I had never hosted my own birthday dinner, that was the first time ever ya! I did succeed to gather all my siblings include my in-laws and we had iftar together. It was a great dinner tho.

Also, currently I also menabung for my umrah on this October. No proper saving, but I believe Tuhan dah gerakkan hati to pray and wish for it, mesti Tuhan nak bagi punya. He is Maha Pemberi, Maha Mengetahui. Never sangka buruk or underestimate our God. Insya'Allah nothing is impossible.

I feel so blessed now. I ada dekat dengan my mak after almost 10 years in architecture school, i ada dekat dengan my bestie, I ada dekat dengan my partner. Tuhan tu sangat baik kan? Thank you God! 

Penat

Aku sejenis manusia ada dua level penat.

Level pertama, penat tahap boleh buat lagi tapi mengada macam nak mati dah. Biasanya tu daily pubya penat lah. Larat je nak buat kerja lagi, tapi disebabkan aku layankan sangat penat tu, biasanya aku decide untuk rehat or tidur.

Level kedua paroh sikit ah. Level ni penat sampai aku menangis tak ingat apa dah. Memang dah rasa aku ni victim segala victim. Rasa macam betul nak mati dah. Memang dah tak larat buat apa dah. Nak bernafas pun rasa letih bukan main.

Both level penat is described as penat. It could happen daily or sometimes tu rarely. Sebab feeling enthusiasm tu kadang wujud...

Tapi bila dah sampai level kedua tu, aku memang biasa menangis sampai tidur lah. Lepas tu tidur bukan sekejap, berbwlas jam h jugak. Lagi lagi waktu PMS, emotional rollercoaster weh.

Misinterpreted

Day by day,  terasa tua sangat. Haih...

It's been awhile aku membebel dekat sini😅

First of all, aku tak percaya that I am still here meneruskan journey aku demi segulung diploma dan sijil kemahiran also sijil vokasional dan sijil sijil yang lain ah. Buek sonang nak kojo nanti😆

Dekat sini, aku selalu sangat pesan dekat kawan-kawan also kenalan yang 'I will always be there untuk semua orang.' Kalau bukan sebagai kawan mungkin sebagai exco kebajikan yang bertanggungjawab ambil tahu kebajikan semua pelajar di sini. Or maybe as a pendengar sahaja. "Aku sentiasa ada" itulah mantera aku dekat sini.

Tapi, mantera aku tu selalu disalah tafsirkan or misinterpreted oleh mereka semua. Haih... Dia orang ingat aku pesan "I will always be there when you facing some sh*t with your life and you can just treat me as a stranger when you're happy with your life"

Aku bukan jenis buat something untuk reward. Aku buat something sebab aku nak buat. Aku tak harap apa apa. Even the magical word 'Thanks' pun.

Aku pun bukan jenis sikit sikit minta tolong, sikit sikit ask favor dekat orang. Kalau betul aku tak mampu buat something, baru aku minta tolong. Itu pun dengan berat hati takut menyusahkan orang.

Disclaimer : bukan nak point out aku ni baik sangat tahap malaikat pun kalah.

Tapi bila aku tolong orang, aku berharap Allah mudahkan urusan urusan aku. Itu je.

Mohon sangat jangan buang aku bila kamu semua tak perlukan aku. Aku pun manusia macam kamu semua. I need some hands sometimes. Ada masa aku kuat, ada masa aku lah paling weak.

I'm not wishing that semua yang aku dah tolong akan tolong aku. Instead applying the Orang berbudi kita berbahasa...

Susah. Betul susah bila kita tengah susah tapi semua orang tak dapat nak bantu kita. And at that time kita tahu yang ada hanya kau dan tuhan :')

Tak apalah. Semoga kamu semua dalam lindungan Allah🌹

Confession

 Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamualaikum. As an intro, I'd to say if you are reading this and you know who I am in the real world, I wish that it just you who is reading this. No one else. And if we're totally strangers, you will know what people around me don't know.

11th March 2017, Saturday. The day that I hate to remember, to talk or write about. But till when? So, here I'm writing here bout it. 

My ayah, Wan Zulkifli passed away on that night.

At the evening was cool, with his hot nescafe tea. Enjoy his leisure front our house. Had a small chat with the neighbor. He maybe had a quick nap too. Then he take his dinner. My mak cook her awesome sambal tumis for dinner. Then he took another nap I guess.

While I'm enjoying dramas on my iPad, he wake up and charge his phone in the kitchen. Then he seat on couch and get up to the kitchen check on his incoming whatsapp. He did that twice or thrice. I just let him be. He look quite busy with his phone.

Suddenly, he stop. He sat on the same couch as before and started whining "Aduh". He push hard on his belly area. And that is how my only one super hero became ill. 

Early in the morning, doctor diagnosed he had a gastric problem. So, we thought he might be fainted. 

Like... No one ever died because of gastronomic thingy, unless it is ulcer or cancer or something worst than that.

After the ambulance came and after we done all the CPR and those emergency stuff, they informed us that my super hero is flew away, somewhere far away.

Start from that second, I realized. I had no man to protect me like ayah always do. I had no man to cheer me up. I had no man that can fetch me from my hostel. I had no super hero around me anymore. 

and I realized, I have to be my own super hero, since I have continue my life, my study, my dreams. Sure won't give up on those things.

and guess what, I realized another thing. A thing that bring me back to square one.

If only I success with my life, my study, my dreams that I've never give up, who will cheer me for that? Who will proud of? Who will congrats me?

Then my mak's face come, my siblings face come.

Sure, I still have them. But, the person only ever say he proud of me is him. It's my ayah, my only one super hero. He always did it for me. Even for those little things. Like when I finished my food, like when I can draw and colours, like when I can count more than ten, like when I finished my pre-school, like when I go up to the stage for receiving an award for my pointers. 

Only he make appearance for become my loyal cheerleader.

Like I said, I feel no one can ever protect me. I feel anyone can harm me freely. I feel like a hot air balloon with patches of holes. When the wind and storm come,  I feel like no one can save me, except my self. I feel like fighting alone without any backups.

I do have brothers. But they don't even mind about me. I don't even close with them. All I want is my ayah. I want him to protect me. To be on my side when someone pick on me.

This maybe what people might said "lack of  love" I don't mind that. Because I think it is true. I lost my dad, it mean I lost his love too. 

And some other people would said "Go find a mate" No. Mate are not the answer. It will burden me, it sure will burden him. I'll keep this special place in my heart just for who deserve it. He will be the only guy in my heart one after my father (*Of course after Prophet Muhammad S.A.W too) And now are not the correct time having him in my heart. Reserve for later on.

When my ustaz said "Ask Allah, Allah will give it the best for you" and I always ask Allah place my ayah in such a nice place with nice peoples. I ask Allah let ayah have better family there. I know that Allah is the mighty. That is where I realized all I have now is Allah.

I believe Allah will protect my family and me. Of course Allah will give happiness to my ayah over there. Insya Allah.

Wassalamualaikum.

My Holidays

Hmmm... Quite long time didn't speak through my typing here.... Well, Assalamualaikum.

Seriously, lama juga langsung tak buka blog even dekat app on my tab. Why? Maybe I treat this whole blog stuff as my open diary.... But I don't have close diary either... I stop doing diary stuff when I was in sekolah rendah lagi.

I only write here, when only I have nobody around me to talk or have a chat with me. Should I use the simpler term? Alone. Yep, when I use to be alone, I tend to feel alone. That's it! That make me write here like a loner. That sucks.

Semester holidays reaching the end. So far, during this holidays nothing much happened. Just we had a first time ever puasa without ayah. Quite awkward. I use to angry early in the morning during sahur session because my ayah won't budge to get up and eat, instead he continue sleeping. But now.... I don't have to, because he is not here anymore. I wish he is. So he can buy my favorite juadah at  bazar. Only he knows what I love in bazar. and which bazar it is.

I do miss him. a lot. 

I'm done with raya outfit for me, my sister and my mak. For my brother, I ask him to buy himself but need to match with us. Our theme for this year should be grassy green (colour of the year 2017), but I think that colour just ugly for our skin yang tak berapa tanned ni dan tak berapa fair ni. So, I decide still go with green, but dark green. Don't mind olive green or emerland green or what. But dark green. Dark clothing will serlahkan our skin tonnes bit more. Actually bukan tak nak cari baju abang sekali, but when i go to baju melayu section, I see baju-baju besar dulu. That remind me to ayah. I want to buy one for him. Instead terus rasa sebak dekat kedai baju, I decide let abang find one for himself lah..

Two weeks of fasting done, two weeks to go. That two weeks I will be fasting in hostel. Sahur and berbuka with dorm mates. Actually, fasting in asrama harder than at home. Maybe because I did too much walking there. Rumah I kecil, so maybe less walking and sekolah dah la besar, jauh dengan asrama. Kelas pula paling atas. Dorm pula kena naik turun tangga juga. Maybe that is the factor I get tired and hungry more in asrama rather than dekat rumah. 

Serious penat puasa dekat asrama. Tapi lauk sedap!

When the holidays reach the ends, that mean i need pack my clothes and ready to get back to my school. This semester will be quite hard. We'll do much more outdoor stuff. and yeah! We'll enter Floria in Putrajaya this year! Yeah, my classmate and me! With our lecturers of course!

Hm... What else? I guess that is it for now. For the bright side. For the next entry, I'll  be write my heart confession. I'll be the dark side. Side that I won't tell or show anyone. But here. Because I know that no one will read such a useless words here.

Membebel menerusi lukisan

Assalmualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatu~ Hai hello!

Kan hari tu iolls ada kata nak payung lukisan yang tak gopoh tu kan? Pecah rahsia lukisan ni semua sikit! Semua lukisan yang ambil masa lebih 10 minit adalah lukisan yang saya buat lepas mandi. Sebelum mandi semua quick muik painting, sebab kejar masa nak mandi! *sengal je*

Normallah, anak dara mandi lambat kannn.. Mandi awal-awal bukan nak pergi mana pun. Dok terperap dalam bilik mereput atas katil dok layan movie or drama adalah! Aku tahu bukan aku sorang je perangai tak senonoh cegini. Yang lain tu kalau tak layan drama mesti dok scroll timeline twitter tak pun instagram!

Sebenarnya bila aku rasa nak membebel at the same time aku nak melukis, that time lah aku buat both of them. Aku akan membebel dalam otak sambil conteng-conteng kertas.

Lebih kurang macam lepas stress juga la... Bila aku rasa macam something membelengu fikiran ini... ecehhhh... Tapi serious, when something just choose to fly everywhere in my mind and don't want to get out.. I write it down, draw it, paint it. Sometimes sambil dengar  lagu, but sometimes it just me talking silently without any voice. Thinking about something seriously while draw it.

This when I curious how do I look when I'm older.
Aku tengok gambar mak aku, lepas tu aku combine sikit muka aku. Jadi la ni...

Kat bawah gambar ni aku ada tulis 'Mak, you always grow young' Aku tak ingat sangat pasal lukisan nih..
25 September 2015, quite a long time ago kan?
I paint this on drawing block sekolah. The cheap and thin paper... With cheap Daiso water color and some cheap blank ink pen.

At the end, it may not looks good. Because thing in my mind rarely a pretty thing. Duh. Sometimes it  does look meaningful for me. Sometimes when I stare at it for few seconds, it make me tears. Then smile. Just think how crazy and insane I am. How can my own drawing make me feel so much emotional?

For me, that is the beautiful of a painting or a drawing or maybe it just a word that written on a piece of paper.

The result make my heart just like a shore. Sekejap ombak manja mai, pastu dia blah. Pastu ombak kuat sikit mai, pastu dia blah. Macam tu la lebih kurang.

Aku bukan budak sasterwan pandai bermadah punjangga semua ni. Semua aku bebel ni straight from inside of me. No filter. Original punya feeling.

Ni masa aku terfikir pasal orang bakar hutan. Randomly. Time tu tak jerebu pun rasanya...
Vibrant color from affordable Pentel 12 water colour tubes 

Bila penyajak rasa something in their mind they write puisi or lagu. But me, aku tak ada bakat semua tu. Aku buat apa yang aku suka. Aku buat apa yang aku mampu. Sometimes aku langgar semua tu. Konon nak challenge diri sendiri ah.. Aku end up give up! Tipu ah kalau tak pernah give up kan... Tu buktikan aku manusia biasa nothing special. Aku bukan genius. Aku bukan pelukis profesional semua tu. Aku lukis ikut apa yang aku observed. Ikut apa yang aku tau aku boleh taram gitu je.

Aku dah lama give up nak sambung warna benda ni. Sebab makin aku sentuh makin buruk plus malas plus boring plus tak reti

Bila bosan, aku just randomly sketch. Lee Hoon Hwa antara hasil 'kerandoman' itu.
*I don't think dia exist*

Tak sure korang nampak or tak, sebenarnya aku dok lukis belakang kertas printed A4 paper
Reuse katanya!

Ni pun sama, reuse sebenarnya. random gila sketch mamat nih.
*mamat ni pun tak wujud kot*

Ni korang boleh nampka kot.. Terang-terang guna semula kertas tu ha... 

This one bit creepy kan? This totally not random! Aku memang tak reti lukis portrait.
Confirm korang tak cam kan? Ahahaha, aku try lukis Marc Marquez sebenarnya!

I saw a picture of  Oregon Mt. so I decide to paint it lah.

Mula-mula beli berus kipas tu, konon nak buat effect rumput, last-last fail!
 that's alright. Dari failure kita belajar kan? 

Aku tak guna professional technique, professional tools semua tu, sebab tu aku panggil conteng-conteng. Main tibai apa yang boleh. Ye lah, it just for self satisfying kan....

Tu je yang akak boleh payung uolls kot... Dah banyak membebel nih! Bye for now~

Sixteen going on Seventeen

Assalamualaikum~

Today is 27 December 2016, that's mean we only have 4 days to go before the chicken's year! Am I turning 17 that fast?

Still ingat lagi. When I'm 4, Ayah pergi kursus for few weeks. Before he leave us, he said to me "Try your best not to grow up while I'm not here.Or I don't recognize my own daughter when I'm back." Then he kiss my forehead.

Rasa macam semalam je benda tu happen.But, pejam celik pejam celik, I'm 16 really going on 17.

Tahun 2016 quite mencabar tapi tak adalah teruk mana. Just pindah to new school, new environment, new friends.. Banyak lah benda baru kena face and sesuaikan diri.

School quite easy, but friendship become tough thing for me. I prefer my old classmate, sebab dah kenal lama plus tinggal pun dekat dekat. But new classmate, bukan tinggal dekat dekat tapi satu dorm ha! Dari bukak mata sampai tutup mata balik hadap muka dia! *LOL*

So, next February I'm turning 17 years old. Macam tak percaya!

Jom throw back sikit.

Okay, dari tahun 2000 hingga 2004 saya tinggal di kuarters angkatan tentera di Kem Tentera Bandar Kinrara, Puchong, Selangor. Tapi bila fikir balik, pelikkan kem tentera ada kat tengah-tengah bandar?

Start 2005 saya mula bersekolah di tadika Sri Kinrara. Siapa yang tadika Sri Kinrara batch 2005 tu boleh lah roger saya! Dulu, dekat tadika tu lah ada first crush saya. I think he is same age with me or maybe a year older or a year younger. Tak ingat sangat. Tapi I love to share my food with him. He is a humble boy. Tak lah handsome mana, tapi memang dia baik. Setiap kali ayah fetch me lambat, I always jenguk dia balik dulu. Ayah dia selau jemput dia naik lori. If not mistaken nama dia Fahmi. If tak salah lah...

Ni cerita sengal sikit. Dulu ada sorang cikgu dekat tadika tu, nama sebenar tak tau tapi nama kita orang panggil 'Teacher Lala". One day, she tells us that she will moving out. She is going to London. On her last day she kiss all of her student and explain that she will fly far away and will miss us. Sampai kat aku, aku bantai jerit "Teacher TIPU!" Satu kelas pandang. Guru besar kat situ gelak je. Tapi memang betul dia pindah London and married to a lucky angmoh over there. Teacher Lala is a malay but she never dress like malay. She is a daring plus sexy teacher and also a pretty teacher.

Move on 2006, saya start pre-schooling dekat Pra sekolah seksyen 1 bandar kinrara. Kelas Orchid. Siapa Kelas Orchid Pra Sekolah S1 BK boleh contact saya juga~ Rindu! Tapi few of them I still jumpa lah. Sebab ada yang still sama sekolah sampai sekolah menengah.

A guy from same pra sekolah but different class. Kelas Anggerik if not mistaken. Kelas Anggerik ni penuh dengan budak pandai woi! And that guy from that class is my classmate since darjah satu till form 3! Almost 10 years weh hadap muka dia tiap hari pergi sekolah! Panjang en jodoh kita orang? Even we're not class mate nor schoolmate anymore, kalau jumpa dekat kedai mamak still tegur menegur.

That guy share name with the guy I crush on masa tadika. Nama dia Fahmi juga. But this Fahmi way too different from Fahmi I crush on. Fahmi yang ni annoying tahap gaban! Tiap hari nak gaduh ngan aku je keja! Dulu masa sekolah rendah selalu buat aku nangis. Tak macam Fahmi tadika tuh, dia baik and always make me laugh!

Next, 2007 until 2009 I'm schooling in Sekolah Kebangsaan Seksyen 1 Bandar Kinrara. Quite nice primary school back then. Now lagi advance I think. During the 3 years, saya ada di tahap satu which is sesi petang.

2007 darjah satu kelas Nilam. I am one of Nilamese SKS1 batch 2007. Ada cikgu favorite time tu. Cikgu Bahasa Melayu, Cikgu Roz. Tak ingat nama betul. Cikgu tu cikgu lelaki, cara dia ajar memang syiok habis weh! Bila akhir tahun, dia bantai main tanah liat dengan kita orang. Siap ajar buat bunga bagai guna playdoh! After that year, tak jumpa dah cikgu tu. Dengar cer dia kahwin lepas tu pindah kot.

2008 darjah dua kelas Berlian. I am also one of Berlianian SKS1 batch 2008. Masa tahun ni tak best sangat. Sebab kelas ni semua bebudak pandai. Lepas tu ramai cikgu pertikaikan kenapa saya boleh masuk kelas tu. Classmate mula-mula okay, but lepas exam dia orang tau saya tak sepandai dia orang kot, so dia orang tak rapat dah dengan saya. Start that year juga saya mula rabun jauh and can't see what the teachers write on the white board. Semua nota copy from the others book. And my study become worst sebab tak faham apa cikgu ajar.

2009 the last year in sesi petang. Darjah tiga kelas Intan. Banyak cerita during this year tapi tak nak cerita. Ada cikgu favorite, cikgu practical English kalau tak salah. Tak ingat nama, tapi dia layan kita orang best gila! Suka bererita. Lepas tu cikgu math, selaku guru kelas, Puan Su.... Su something la. Tak ingat nama, tapi muka memang ingat sangat! I love cikgu ni sebab selalu aku ngan cikgu je asyik hias kelas. So, memang selalu spen time together lah.

From 2010 until 2012 aku naik tahap dua, sesi pagi.

2010 darja empat kelas zamrud. Aku jadi penolong ketua kelas sebab aku garang dia orang kata. Sebalik garang dalam tolong monitor kelas, banyak kali aku menangis sebab jawatan tu. Tau tak leader aku siapa? Nama dia Idzham, my bestie crush on him. So, memang bestie aku benci aku sebab aku rapat dengan crush dia. Duh! Tak ada lah rapat sebenarnya, banyak gaduh adalah! and still bertarung dengan study sebab rabun kan.... Then my guru kelas found out my problem, then kasi tau my parent. Aku takut nak bagi tau mak yang aku rabun sebab mak ayah struggle cari duit. Aku tak nak dia orang feel burden. So, start tahun tu lah aku jadi budak bermata empat!

2011 darjah lima kelas intan. Tahun ni nightmare, tak nak ulas banyak. The hardest part of entire my primary school. Banyak problems and dramas occurred during this year. The year I most hate in my entire life so far.

2012 darjah enam kelas Zamrud. Dapat classmate yang okay la. They made me into a net ball player. Best la juga tahun ni. The most happy part is after UPSR, best gila kan... Still ingat The Wanted Girls!! Argggghhh rindunye~!

As you can see, I only proud of my 2007-2009 classes siap ada nama team class lagi. Sebab after that, I changed when everyone haven't. Puberty change me. I tend to have different vision from the rest of them. So memang tak best lah. Sebab aku sorang je yang lain.

2013 until January 2016 I get into Secondary school. SMK S1 Bandar Kinrara.

2013 tingkatan satu kelas Alfa. Tahun ni tak best mana, sebab baru kenal itu ini. Actually, time ni lah aku start join kelas Bahasa Jepun.

2014 tingkatan dua kelas Alfa. Memang tak berubah sebab sekolah ni tak amalkan sistem streaming. So, kekallah dengan gelaran Alfanators tu ha.. Paling sadis untuk Puan Ng Mei Yong sebab dapat kami as her student.

2015 tingkatan tiga kelas Alfa lagi. Sebab no streaming kan... Paling gempak tahun ni ah! PT3 tapi still gila-gila! Guru kelas cikgu BM paling awesome! Layan je kita orang macam anak-anak dia. Ajar pun terbaik! Tips dia bagi memang berguna! Aku memang rapat dengan dia, Sampai amik result PT3 aku join dia jaga kaunter weyh! Masuk dewan jaga kaunter, tiba-tiba nama aku Pengetua announce atas pentas sebab dapat 7A. Memang gembira gila ah! Aku target dapat 5A, lagi dua tu memang extra ngan bonus bagi aku ah..

January 2016 tingkatan empat kelas Alfa sekali lagi. Bukan tak ada streaming, tapi memang dah nasib aku menetap dekat Alfa ni ha. Kelas ni aliran sains tulen 1. and kejadian 2008 berlaku lagi. Ramai cikgu pertikaikan kenapa aku masuk kelas tu. Haih... Tak lama lepas tu aku pindah masuk KVDLM. Tingallah gelaran Alfanator ganti Lelarians/landscaper.

Sepanjang aku sekolah rendah, tak ada pun kawan yang betul betul setia dengan aku dan aku setia dengan dia orang. But time sekolah mengah, I found Siti Nur Nabilah. She is truly my sahabat dunia akhirat! Susah senang always with me. Bila kita orang ada masalah, we'll together solve it. Sampai sanggup tak cukup tidur sama-sama, letih penat sama-sama, jalan kaki, jogging semua sama-sama. Sayang anda!

Okay, we reach the end for now about my journey. Ni lah serba sedikit tetang persekolahan aku. Most of the time of my life memang aku spend dekat sekolah je banyak. Tah kenapa, aku pun tak sure. Dari pagi sampai petang asyik stay kat sekolah je. Sampai kena label budak nerd. Tapi mana ada nerd sebenarnya...

That's it for now. Happy New Year guys!! May 2017 full with bless, love and joy~

Tulus Ikhlas Ku Berbicara : Respect!

Assalamualaikum,hai~

Nak cakap sikit, saya baru balik tournament ITF peringkat negeri Selangor dekat Damansara semalam.. Manyak sakit, manyak penat, manyak best~!! one word to express yesterday : Rindu 

Kipas buat tudung saye jdi burok!! Btw, Sir.... thnks for the selfieeee~!!

Banyak sangat yang berlaku pada 10 May 2014. Saya datang lambat sikit... sebab saye pi shopping dekat 7-e dulu.. ehehe.. sampai kat dewan tu arround pukul 7.40 pagi macam tu la.. masuk dewan pukul 8.00 pagi sebab orang yang unlock gate tu datang lambat.. 

First thing kita orang pakai uniform then saye terus register kan untuk semua group sekolah saya... After tu, kita orang ambil kesempatan take a  lots of selfie 'Ourfie'..

(Yana, saya, Dylan, Nadhirah) muke saya agak letih sebab kene bekejar sana sini sebab kena handle semua benda...

Kita orang semua join acara pattern and for 4th Kup group kita orang semua dapat medal!! lucky kan? em.... Except Matt sebab dia category lain...

nak tegok our's medals?

Ainaa and Nabilah got bronzer , me got gold and Nad got Silver for pattern...

After sambut VVIP from JBSNS kita orang kena rest and get ready for sparring!

Category saya,nad,ainaa,yana,lela,anis natasha is middle weight girl under 15 y/o color belt.. Ayu,Nabilah,Uzma and anis nurul ain pulak heavy weight girl under 15 y/o color belt...

yang lain light weight punya category.. Time light weight fight, one of my junior pengsan! I need to carry her masuk dalam kereta then terus pergi clinic... know what? Saya tak sempat pakai kasut pun! keluar masuk clinic tak pakai kasut!! malu wey! orang tengok atas bawah atas bawah je... masa tu sir Azrul and Sir Hasbullah je yang ikut.. Sir Hasbullah pun gelak tengok saya.. Kita orang leave budak yang pengsan tu dekat clinic. On the way back to tournament, saya da start nak nangis sebab saya rasa maybe tak sempat sparring kot!! maybe patner saya tu menang tanpa bertanding.. down gile~ Allah je tau perasaan time tu.. dah la hujan, tak pakai kasut, tak dapat sparring lak tu..

Sampai je dekat dewan tu, saya berlari masuk dewan then masuk ring tempat kawan-kawan saya duduk.. Sir Azrul pergi cakap dekat juri kenapa saya tak ada tadi then dia mintak saya fight.. saya dgn penat angkat budak tadi,penat berlari pon tak hilang lagi..terus fight dengan partner saya,then saya menaaaaaang~!!

Without rest, terus tukar glove than fight with nadhirah.. I lost..penat kot!

After a while, sir azrul panggil saya then cakap yang budak tu da ok.. dia ade kat belakang.. saya pun pergi dekat budak tu pastu ajak duduk dekat surau sebab ade air-cond, sejuk sikit..

After hantar budak tu, saya turun and lepak kejap kat luar dewan.. main candy crush sekejap then saya masuk and keluar dewan banyak kali.. tah kenapa tah... Ha! Uztaz Hafiz A.k.a PU Hafiz datang even dia sempat lari then datang balik.. dia lari sebab dia kena jaga murid exam.. Malas nak selfie dengan dia, macam tak  biasa jumpa.. 

Time senja tu, tiba-tibaaaaaaa~!!!!!!! Sir Azhar datang dekat saya then cakap ; 

"Siapa nak lawan  black belt? Sir tak paksa,tapi sape yang lawan nanti dapat pengalaman lebih la..."

Semua kawan saya look at me... ada yang cakap sepatutnya Ayu yang kena fight... Tapi Ayu dah balik da time tu... So,dengan perasaan rela paksa, saya pun fight la..

Memang kenal sangat siape partner saya this time.. puteri.. sakit wo dia punch!!

Tahun ni lagi ramai peserta than tahun lepas, sebab ada academy baru.. dia orang friendly,tapi ada juga la yang poyo melangit padahal still white belt,setakat awak tu lagi tua tapi tak reti nak hormat senior baik tak payah  join taekwon-do.. malukan taekwondo je! keyh,lantak pi la dia tu...

Okey,Saya out dulu... Tapi ingat! even awak lagi tua,saya lagi muda,saya still dikira senior belt,so tolong la hormat sikit. Ni tak,dok kutuk-kutuk ape hal?! To akak poyo white belt, tolong la belajo respect! 

Assalamualaikum~

Us! my face macam mintak back kick je..

Ade orang tu busy dengan tudunglah..

Ustaz Hafiz pinjam bas nak selfie sat na..

Time ni nak balik da.. sedih ar..

Muke saya risau semacam sebab kena fight dengan puteri.. tapi diarong bole main bomoh-bomoh lak~

Mari doakan semua yang terlibat denggan Flight MH370 yang hilang itu diberikan berita yang indah~ Amin...