My Holidays

Hmmm... Quite long time didn't speak through my typing here.... Well, Assalamualaikum.

Seriously, lama juga langsung tak buka blog even dekat app on my tab. Why? Maybe I treat this whole blog stuff as my open diary.... But I don't have close diary either... I stop doing diary stuff when I was in sekolah rendah lagi.

I only write here, when only I have nobody around me to talk or have a chat with me. Should I use the simpler term? Alone. Yep, when I use to be alone, I tend to feel alone. That's it! That make me write here like a loner. That sucks.

Semester holidays reaching the end. So far, during this holidays nothing much happened. Just we had a first time ever puasa without ayah. Quite awkward. I use to angry early in the morning during sahur session because my ayah won't budge to get up and eat, instead he continue sleeping. But now.... I don't have to, because he is not here anymore. I wish he is. So he can buy my favorite juadah at  bazar. Only he knows what I love in bazar. and which bazar it is.

I do miss him. a lot. 

I'm done with raya outfit for me, my sister and my mak. For my brother, I ask him to buy himself but need to match with us. Our theme for this year should be grassy green (colour of the year 2017), but I think that colour just ugly for our skin yang tak berapa tanned ni dan tak berapa fair ni. So, I decide still go with green, but dark green. Don't mind olive green or emerland green or what. But dark green. Dark clothing will serlahkan our skin tonnes bit more. Actually bukan tak nak cari baju abang sekali, but when i go to baju melayu section, I see baju-baju besar dulu. That remind me to ayah. I want to buy one for him. Instead terus rasa sebak dekat kedai baju, I decide let abang find one for himself lah..

Two weeks of fasting done, two weeks to go. That two weeks I will be fasting in hostel. Sahur and berbuka with dorm mates. Actually, fasting in asrama harder than at home. Maybe because I did too much walking there. Rumah I kecil, so maybe less walking and sekolah dah la besar, jauh dengan asrama. Kelas pula paling atas. Dorm pula kena naik turun tangga juga. Maybe that is the factor I get tired and hungry more in asrama rather than dekat rumah. 

Serious penat puasa dekat asrama. Tapi lauk sedap!

When the holidays reach the ends, that mean i need pack my clothes and ready to get back to my school. This semester will be quite hard. We'll do much more outdoor stuff. and yeah! We'll enter Floria in Putrajaya this year! Yeah, my classmate and me! With our lecturers of course!

Hm... What else? I guess that is it for now. For the bright side. For the next entry, I'll  be write my heart confession. I'll be the dark side. Side that I won't tell or show anyone. But here. Because I know that no one will read such a useless words here.