Wednesday, 20 November 2019

Budak KL ke?

Masa first first aku study dekat Negeri Sembilan ni, ramai yang boleh agak aku ni asal dari negeri mana at my first sentence bila berborak. Sebab aku dah biasa guna malay-english mixed together dekat sekolah menengah dulu. Malay dalam sentence tu just melengkapkan or memalaysiakan ayat tu je. Most of the time aku lagi selesa using english.

Tapi sekarang dah empat tahun. Counting days je ni... Ada yang tanya "eh betul ke kau dari Selangor-KL? Tak bunyi macam KL pun" 😂 I try to adapt dengan new surroundings, new place, new friends as soon as I Can. If I need to change and live better here, I will.

And I explained to them. Aku boleh guna accent KL, but now I'm in a place where bukan semua dari KL or Selangor. Boleh je aku cakap "sekejarp ah" or "wait ah". But I'm using "Jap eh" here. I'm trying hard to blend in here😅😂

Lepas tu, ramai dekat sini from 'Fxlda'. Nothing wrong bout where they came from. Tapi most of them have this one stigma towards Selangor-KL people. For most of them, orang dari KL ni semua kerek, berlagak, hidung tinggi, can't really speak in malay, tak tahan panas and so on lah. But it is totally not how we looks like or act like. 😂

Aku nak tulis sini pun rasa lawak kejap. After knowsing about that kind of stigma, they'll try to be like one. Ingat cool ke? It feels like you having a culture shock or worst, kami ingat kamu oramg mocking us🙃 So, nope. Bukan semua orang KL or Selangor snobby. Banyak sangat nengok drama nihhhh

KL people, Selangor people adalah still manusia. Kami masih rakyat Malaysia. Kami bertutur bahasa Malaysia, dan bahasa bahasa lain. We might doesn't have any specific accent, but we speak malay too.

Tak kisah mana asal kita, yang penting jadi diri sendiri. If changes needed to adapting in new environment, try. But don't made it up by your own thoughts or just because the stigma that passed down from your old fashioned men

Monday, 18 November 2019

Big Rock

Few days left before aku habis belajar dekat kolej ni... Next year dah start practical. Dah ada commitments, bills, rental, gas, foods, apa semua kena sendiri.

Aku risau, kot ada bulan tu aku terciduk terduduk tak ada duit, tang mana aku nak korek duit? Mak aku tak ada income, takat pencen, apa lah sangat.... Part time? Mall pun sama jauh dengan office.

Aku plan nak buat dropship, or jadi personal shopper. Kot rajin kot ada modal, buat business desserts kuih muih sikit sikit. Just backup untuk moments terciduk. Bukan business nak kaya, tapi nak survive...

Kalau nak kerja kedai makan, kena inject typhoid, amik kursus. Duit minyak lagi. Nak modal lagi...

Aku tak nak menyusahkan mak aku. I don't want to be a big rock on my mum's back. Mak dah tua, mak sepatutnya relax dah.. Anak tanggung dia,bukan vice versa...

Aku takut, aku takut aku menyusahkan orang lain. Aku takmau jadi beban orang lain.

And I knew that six months of job training won't be easy. Yelah, intern mesti intense kan?

Aku harap surroundings office okay. Tak minta best, kawtim baik. Enough to be called positive circle. Cukup aku tak rasa benci pergi kerja.

Sumpah, aku takut. Aku takut path I choosed all this time is the wrong path. I'm afraid even to sleep while having thoughts of it.

Semoga tuhan memberi kemudahan, kesenangan, ketenangan untuk aku lalui enam bulam akan datang tu.

Hoping for any black clouds and black dog doesn't appear within the period.

Insya'Allah, I'll try my best. Kerja elok elok. Pay back to mak. Belanja adik beradik. And let mak rest, toksah risau risau dah...

Kalau ada yang read this, know what? I really need your prayers. Doakan aku berjaya. Doakan aku tak membebankan sesiapa. Doakan aku please. Terima kasih, hanya Allah dapat repay semua doa doa tu