Saya ni bukannya ada tempat nak luah semua benda... Family pun macam tak nak faham je... Tak apa lah...
Jujur saya cakap eh,saya tak rasa saya nak rasa hari esok. Tak nak langsung. Why? Sebab I know that I'll fill my day with sinssssss... Start from I celik this eyes,start from my first breathing on that day,malaikat atas bahu kiri ni dah tulis something dah... Even when I'm slepping while dreaming,he still write something. That is whylah I don't want meet next day. It just burden for me. What for Allah giving me time? Allah knows that I won't change. He knows!
Why I said that family pun macam tak nak faham? Because everytime I start luahkan semuanya,confirm dia orang akan prove that I am who is wrong. Everytime! Always! Everytime I try to 'mengadu domba' with my sister or my mom, they will say "Awak yang sepatutnya......" Or "Dia tak salah. Awak yang........." It always hurt me. I don't want facing them when I have problem because I know that I am who will get hurt. Thats why I end up with keep all the problems alone,by my self. Human will not understand me. 100% sure that none of 7+billions people on this earth can understand me. For sure!
If bunuh diri is not dosa,I already kill myself. Seriously,for sure I'm not writting this blog or wattpad books..
Tah la... People said that teen having their soulmate because of this. But in my case,I don't have minat nak couple bagailah.. Why? It's complicated la... Jaga diri sendiri je la...
So, itu je yang boleh luah dengan typing ni... Letih already lah!
Pie~🙋
