I'm living my life but in an imperfect way. I'm not in comfort zone, not that happy, but not that bad tho.
This useless mco, fmco are just tiring. I gave up. Told my mom "If I survived, then I survived. If I'm not, then I'm not."
Everyday having those dark thoughts lingering in my head are not easy. Not easy to keep breathing, eating, sleeping. Don't even mention to be happy.
Dream still be a dream. Can't ever seeing in to be close to be reality.
