Aku pun try luahkan ekat one of my housemate. Aku cakap yang aku ada suicidal thoughts. And know what she replied? "Kau ni orang (read as *agama*) apa ha?"
Allahu. It breaks me more. It makes me feel worst. Doesn't reliving at all. Rasa macam betul betul betu betup punya tak tahan nak hidup dah.
It is not I don't have faith towards Allah. Wallahi, I couldn't explain how it feels, but I'm still His servant.
I did call befrienders, but the communication doesn't goes well. He couldn't understand what I'm trying to say, I don't know how to explain what is happening, end up I ended the call.
I know there are lots more human facing bad things in life worst than what I'm facing right now. But by asking what my religion doesn't help anything.
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