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It come today. This morning to be exact. I feel useless, trapped, I don't see any glow in my future vision. 

The thought knocks my head. It says, there is rooftop on my apartment. And I'm curious what is falling down and never breath again feels like.

It's not like I feel 'cukup amalan'already or I didn't think of my my and my family. It's really though, really hard to explain. I don't feel alive. I don't feel good to be alive just one more second anymore. I fell stuffed. 

And I know that no one will notice my absences. No one ever care about it. Alah... Aku sorang  je yang tak ada😌

If before tbis I'm really passionate for tomorrow, to achieve more, to making more people smile. But not any more