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Hai,harini saya nak tulis semua yang saya simpan... Why? Sebab I know that no one read my blog. 

Saya ni bukannya ada tempat nak luah semua benda... Family pun macam tak nak faham je... Tak apa lah... 

Jujur saya cakap eh,saya tak rasa saya nak rasa hari esok. Tak nak langsung. Why? Sebab I know that I'll fill my day with sinssssss... Start from I celik this eyes,start from my first breathing on that day,malaikat atas bahu kiri ni dah tulis something dah... Even when I'm slepping while dreaming,he still write something. That is whylah I don't want meet next day. It just burden for me. What for Allah giving me time? Allah knows that I won't change. He knows! 

Why I said that family pun macam tak nak faham? Because everytime I start luahkan semuanya,confirm dia orang akan prove that I am who is wrong. Everytime! Always! Everytime I try to 'mengadu domba' with my sister or my mom, they will say "Awak yang sepatutnya......" Or "Dia tak salah. Awak yang........." It always hurt me. I don't want facing them when I have problem because I know that I am who will get hurt. Thats why I end up with keep all the problems alone,by my self. Human will not understand me. 100% sure that none of 7+billions people on this earth can understand me. For sure!

If bunuh diri is not dosa,I already kill myself. Seriously,for sure I'm not writting this blog or wattpad books..

Tah la... People said that teen having their soulmate because of this. But in my case,I don't have minat nak couple bagailah.. Why? It's complicated la... Jaga diri sendiri je la...

So, itu je yang boleh luah dengan typing ni... Letih already lah!

Pie~🙋

29 February 2015?!

Assalamua'laikum! Hallloooo~ As you know,saya punya birth date is 29 February. Yeah... 4 tahun sekali... 

Okay,today is 1 Mac. Actually saya confused,bila birthday saya? 28 February or 1 Mac? 😂😂😂 

Untuk tahun ni,saya sambut masa dinner je... Makan sama-sama,gelak sampai nasi masuk hidung sama-sama,minum air sampai tersedak pun sama-sama!  Haaaa... Happening habis chuolls!

Nah! Sempena birthday saya,saya belanja selfie bajet cun padahal muka macam jamban tak siap!

Artist Not Retis

Assalamualaikum! Hellllloooooo~ 

First of all,tajuk tu 99.99% tak berkaitan dengan post kali ni.

Saya and my sibling know basic about seni. Kalau lukis ikut imagination kita orang sendiri memang superb lah. Why? Sebab memang dari otak sendiri. Suka hati pokok nak kaler apa,suka hati nak matahari kaler apa...

Kalau kakak saya,dia more to anime 2D punya drawing. Abang saya more to 3D,tapi dia selalu lukis robots,cars macam tu je... Saya? Saya more to 2D landscape and digital art. Saya suka landscape and saya suka main Photoshop. 

Tapi,most of us tak boleh buat art tu perfect kalau orang minta. Contoh ; "Weh,tolong aku lukiskan ni. Yang hujung tu je. Yang lain aku tau. Tolong ehhhhh...." Okay,then I help her to draw that hujung thing.mbut then, she said ; "Allllaaaaaaaa~~~~~~~ Kalau aku nak dia macam ni,tak mo macam tu boleh?" Weh! Nak perfect buat sendiri la! Saya ni bukannya designer awak! 

Saya lagi suka kalau lukis apa yang saya nak. Saya tak suka lukis ikut arahan orang lain. Bila orang kata rambut mesti kaler hitam,I think that is totally wrong. Why? Sebab imagination kita tak ada limit untuk fikir rambut tu ada berapa kaler. Ikut logic,memang tak ada manusia yang ada rambut 100% sama kaler semuanya. Exceptlah dia ubah...

Sejak dulu tadika lagi. Bila teacher said heart bentuk dia macam ni..... Kaler dia pink or merah sahaja.... Hergh! I don't care what she said! I make my heart sebelah bujur,sebelah tajam-tajam. Why? Because I think human are AWESOME!! Ahahaha!😂😂😂 Yah! After that I got scloded by that teacher. Lepas tu apa lagi? Nangis sambil mengadu domba dekat mak ah! LOL! Throwback sangat!

So,moral of the story. Not all artist or artist to be like me.......😆like to obey what people ask him/her to do. Especially about his/her art. Okay? Dah habis daaaah entry ni... Pai~ muah ciked! 😘👋

                                   

Pisautumpul.com

Assalamualaikum! Hi! 

Last few days,I went watched movie with my sister. Then,we had late lunch at one famous cafe restaurant. We odered the chicken 4 side,garlic bread,chips and rice. 

Here the story begin. When we first enter the restaurant,we heard a woman nagging to her workmates... Okay,maybe just for a while. But! When our oder arrived,she still nagging. Ump! I tried ingnored her, and enjoy my food. Urgh! The knife not sharp enough to cut my chicken!M and that woman still not shut her mouth. You know what I think that time? I feel like I want kill her with that knife! It's hard to cut the chicken with that knife... Now,I am proud and thankful that I am malay because I eat with my hands normaly... But in that restaurant,if I used my hand... Erm....

Then suddenly my sister's friend that join us said "It must be tough having manager like her..." Yah! Agreed!! Never can stop nagging! If nag in low volume it is acceptable,but her voice just too loud!! Ergh! She just disturb I'm eating with that knife. The knife even can't slice my garlic bread!! I just acted like france woman,eating with their hand and 'greesing' my fingers... Eiii.. The butter and oil go over all my fingers... Just not comfortable with it.

Okay,I don't write much when I'm angry. So,that's it.

#Pray4Palestine #Freepalestine #Pray4MH370 #RememberingMH17 

14th November 2014. Friday.

Assalamualaikum and hello!~ 

In my latest entry I said that there's student from Saitama,Japan came to my school right? Here I'm gonna start teh story the mory time!

They came at around 10 a.m. by 6 busses!! 6 okay! SIX!! Can you imagine how the busses 'line up' front of my school? Woooah! The came with full school uniform and bright SMILE! They are very smart and cute for me! 

Want see they pics? Here we gooooo~

It supposed to be a candid picture,but..... Er.. #Kantoi . Okay. Enough. Continue with my story.

I thought that  we'll have rotation time while do the activities,but Nope. 1 class 1 station. How sad. They can't try various games... Never mind,I hope they will exchage story with their friends. Hah! Forgot to tell. They all are 360 pupils!! If not mistaken. Maybe they just too many,so can't do the rotation... 

I was in station 1A. Which is congkak and batu seremban for japanese student to try and a folk story to malaysian student to watch. Here the pictures!

The girl on the middle is my partner. Her name is Ami.

Yah! We need play this games on the table! It is hard! We need to standing to play the games... It usually played on the floor. Umm...

This group try to play while sitting. But it hard to make movements...

This group end the game earlie because the chaperone not really know how to play those games... So,they end up with chatting. How fun~

So,here my group. But one missing! Ami preparing for her performance... #foreveralone 

here link for their folk story perfomance. I recorded by using my hands,so it is very shaky... Sorry. 

https://youtube.com/watch?v=JTt-rb49fuQ

#Pray4Palestine #Pray4Malaysia #Pray4MH370 #RememberingMH17

I can't.

Assalamualaikum and hi! 

Last few days,japanese student from Wako Kokusai High School,Saitama,Japan visited my school! Eheeee! So,here I tell you about me and japanese. I usually communicate with them by using english and very very very little bit of japanese. When I introduce my self,I'll say "My name is Wan. Number one." So,they will pronounce it right. Wan,not Woun or Won or Wen or Wain or something else. But if they ask for my name not my family name,I'll write somewhere. I'll write in kanji like this 愛沙.    I can't read kanji,but I memorized it. 

So,don't get me wrong. I can't speak chinese (mandrin and etc). I can't read kanji. I can only read arabic,malay,english,hiragana and all with ABC. I probably can read it but I can't understand it. Like arabic and those  japanese. I can only read not understanding tye meaning of the words.

After this,if you guys buy stuff from Daiso or other japanese store,don't ask me to read the japanese words. Because all the ingredients or notes written there are written in kanji which is I can't read. Heishhh... My friends knowing that I learn japanese and they ask me to read all the stuff. And I'm like "What do you think I am?" I just quit the class. Because it hard to focus on japanese class. The class only have 3 peoples. And the class start when I finished my regular school time. It was too tiring.. After that I need back home and done all the home works and the assignment.... Maybe I'll start over when I'm done my school. We see first ahh..

Okay. That's it from my heart. #Pray4Palestine #Pray4MH370 #RememberingMH17 #Pray4Malaysia #Pray4Ummah

Sambung ya!

Assalamualaikum! Hai,hai,hai and hai gorgeous sekalian! Ni saye nak sambung cerita Entry sebelum ni.

Pelajar jepun yang terlibat dengan program pengantaraan kali ni adalah dari sekola Torei Gakuen Fujisawa,Tokyo,Japan. Macam saya dah bagi tahu,sekolah ni semua pelajarnya adalah lelaki.

Pelajar yang pertama turun merupakan murid yang berbaju 'Semakin Di Depan' berwarna biru. And he is my partner. His name is Takamoto-san. He is 17 years old and his english almost perfect! Kalah saye opkoz!

Kenapa dia tanya saya "what is meaning of 'Tida' ?" Sebab,masa tangkap gambar masa dia orang mula-muka sampai,cikgu dok cakap 'Tegak! tegak!' Lepas tu count "satuuu,duwaaa, Tiga!" So dia rasa tegak dengan tiga tu sama kut, Lepas tu Fariz Azim yang ZYC tu dok ajuk dia orang sebut tidaaa tidaaa,tu yang takamoto curious tuh!

Lepas dia tanya tu,kita orang kena nyanyi lagu negara masing-masing. Lepas tu guru besau sekolah saya bagi speech and diikuti wakil guru besau sekolah dia orang. Then,ketua murid sekolahsaya pula bagi speech. Lepas tu ketua murid sekolah dia orang pula kena bagi speech. Tiba-tiba Takamoto bangun. TIKIJUT sayaaa! Dia ketua murid ah! Ahaha!! Patut english awak superb sangat! 

After dia bagi speech,ada performance silat. Time tu dia macam curious sikit,so saya explain la apa tu silat. After that ada gap kejap. Time tu la saye tangkap gamba polaroid dengan dia! We took twice! One for him,one for me! Masa saye mintak nak tangkap gambar,I saw his eyes! Omooooo! Brown! Wooo! shine bright like twinkle twinkle little star! Gituu!

Okay,lepas silat tu semua orang berpecah into group. Actually kita orang dah tetapkan group masing-masing. dan sepatutnya chaperone ingat group masing-masing. Tapi hari tu semua ikut kepala masing-masing... Heish... Then,group saya supposed play congkak,tapi ada group member yang besau kepala tak nak ikut... Masa main congkak,saya punya partner tu kalah! Habih muka ketat! 

Lepas main congkak,kita orang moved to outdoor game. Kita orang gerak to padang sekolah. Masa otw to padang,takamoto-san asked me ; "Are we going to play soccer?" at first saya tak dengar macam soccer,dengar macam sakkah... then lama sikit baru faham.. then saya replied ; "Ah... Nope! We will play another traditional game. It's calleg konda-kondi. Actually I've never played this game before. I even don't know how to play it... *gelak*" Ahhhh.. da la panas ting tong! Kena pakai tudung hitam some more! memang tebakaw kapala hini! Masa dia orang main konda-kondi,chaperone kena pegang barang dia orang and duduk (lebih tepat berdiri) dekat tepi. Masa duduk tu saya just main 'x o x o' dengan sorang senior saya... boooooriiiiing! Bila dia orang dah habis main,saya tanya takamoto-san yang dia nak wash hand ke tak. he said "no,it's okay..." 

lepas tu ada sorang kawan saya poked bahu saya and she said "wan,apa dia cakap?" She ask me sebab dia ingat partner dia cakap bahasa jepun. Kenapa saya? because I understand japanese! okay,lepas tu saya tanya partner dia apa yang dia cakap dekat chaperon dia. and he said "I ask do you like sport?" Haih... tu je... 😑

After konda-kondi,we moved to our lab! What for? Chinese tea time!!🍵 masa tu chaperone kena duduk jugak... 😒 saya buat apa masa tu? saya main walkie-talkie media student punye .. boriiiiiing! habis je,saya tanya partner saya tu "how the tea taste?" he replied "Oh! It nice! We also have tea like this in Japan." Hmm.. Okay,hang ada teh,kami pon ada teh! teh tariiiiiik tingggggiii funyer! hoooh!

Ok lah... malas nak cerita semua activities.. nanti panjang kalah eambut Cik Puan Rapunzel! So,memang best la jadi chaperon for this time! Thanks a lot Takamoto-san! 

#Pray4MH370 #RememberingMH17 #Pray4Palestine #Pray4Sabah #Pray4CameronHighland #Pray4Malaysia