Rindu

Hey, Assalamualaikum gang...

It has been 293 days my beloved ayah kembali kepada si Pencipta. *very deep sigh* 

What do I feel? How do I feel? How I'm doing?

Very well, Alhamdulillah. Tipulah kalau kata langsung tak nangis dah, but not as bad as dulu lah. I'm trying to get into my self back. Every time teringat ayah, I try my best to recall our sweet, happy moments together. And yeah, that help me ukir senyuman kembali.

I miss him. Rindu, memang rindu gila gila gila. Tapi kena redha dengan ketentuan Allah kan... *cliche gileee* 

What do I most rindu about my ayah?

I miss his beard. Aku paling tak suka bila dia have a clean licin habis shave. Sebab ayah aku ni suka cium aku. Yang adik-beradik lain  aku tak tau lah, tapi mungkin sebab aku paling kecik, sooo....

Okay, bila dia kiss dahi ke, pipi ke, memang terasa kasar janggut dia. I miss that. 

Kepada future husband I, silalah bela beard sikit. Kasi tajam-tajam sikit ye

Lepas tu, aku rindu gila nak ikut dia memancing udang. Pancing ikan aku tak berapa minat sebab lambat sangat! Kalau udang, copek yo... Tak kesah lah dekat lombong ke, sungai ke, kalau kolam lagi BEST! Sebab nanti mesti ada food cart datang jual jajan. LOL! Port kitorang dekat area Hulu Langat ah. Tapi tak tau wujud lagi ke tak kolam udang situ.

Ha! Lagi satu aku rindu pasal ayah aku. Ayah aku selalu sangat beli durian. Sampai tahap peti sejuk tu tak lekang bau durian weh... Gentle, kalau kau taruk kek red velvet secret recipe dalam tu, confirm rasa durian! Now bila ayah tak ada, aku pun kempunan macam mengandung 9 bulan nak makan durian. Dekat setahun dah tak merasa durian ha... I miss his figure bawak plastic koyak-koyak sebab duri durian. Lepas tu dia akan bentang surat khabar, lepas tu ajak makan berjemaah depan tv sambil tengok WWE! Weh, rindu weh...

Dah la. Sebak lak ha. Kang menangis sorang-sorang lak aku. Well, doakan Wan Zulkifli bin Wan Ismail dijauhkan daripada azab kubur, dan dipermudahkan menjawab soalan malaikat munkar dan nakir. 

Cuti Woi

Assalamualaikum guuuuyyyyssss!! Finally Jemah dah coti-coti Malaysia katekauuu! Aimaklom, coti serentak ikut dak2 sekolah...

Bila dah cuti, aku ni bukan reti nak duduk diam. Mesti berjalan punya weehhh! Lagi2 LRT dekat sekali dihati kamiiii! Eh! Dekat dengan rumah sebenarnya....

Well, den poei mano yo? Well, buat masa ni KL je makcik mampu jalan... KL mano? KL of course kena jejak #ExpoNegaraku2017🇲🇾 dulu! Dah lepas 5 khubah tu baru boleh jejak tempat lain. 

Dekat expo tu ada kejadian weh. Aku punya harok berjimba kesana kemari cari makanan lepas dah makan. Sebab kami jenis nak 'merasa' sampai kenyang uoolllss! Sedang kami berhuhahuha, tiba-tiba ada unnie sorang ni taril lengan aku. Dia kata "Pelis helwp me. Ayam... Berry sick! Werrree khospitel? Aiwanna go to deee khospitel berry past!" (Please help me. I'm..... Very sick! Where's hospital? I wanna go to the hospital very fast!) At first aku tak paham, aku pandang memember aku yang lain. Dorang lagi blur weh! Aku pun puas mencerna butir patah apa dia cakap then translate kat memember aku.

Dipendekkan cerita, memember aku pun tolong call the medic crew that memang on standby mode. Dah panggil depa bawa unnie tu dengan ommunie dia naik ambulance. Aku rasa dia tak tahan panas kot... Sebab dia ada mention "ayam feel so dijji"😂😂😂 kome paham ke idok? (I'm feel so dizzy) aku tau yang english depa berhabuk, tapi okay la tu... Paham lah jugak katekauu! 

Lepas tu aku pun melencong untuk melancong sekitar historical places in KL. banyak, tapi banyak aku pun tak tahu tempat tu😅😅

Lepas tu I take some of my cuti time untuk disumbang menjadi my leisure time. Aku pergi tengok movie Coco dekat KLCC dengan member sekolah rendah dulu. Lepas rindu ah kiranya.... Habis je movie, we decide lepak dulu ah. Ha kau, tiba-tiba lagiii.... Tiba-tiba ada dua orang mamat nihongo mai. Depa amat bersopan santun kaaaauuu! Nak tanya minta izin banyak kali! 

At first I thought that they want to ask about direction to somewhere. But not! They asking us about Malaysian woi! Dorang tanya "why Malaysian are so friendly towards foreigners and tourists?" Aku pun dengan confident jawab soalan depa dengan positifnya! Banyak juga dorang tanya. Maybe ada assignment kot. 

But those two Japanese men, we're apologize if our answers didn't help you guys knowing more about Malaysian cultures. 

For tourists that want to know more about malaysian culture, you should go to any of our heritage city. Such as Malacca and penang. Maybe sabah and sarawak too. KL is more about our modern life surrounded by tall buildings and flyovers everywhere.

Aku time cuti ni banyak jadi duta Malaysia tak berbayar katekauuu! Tapi tak pa, memang kita as rakyat Malaysia memang kena bawa nama negara even nak pergi lepak dekat KLCC je pun. Adab, sopan santun kena jaga. Sebab tourists and foreigners ada je dok perati perangai budaya kita. Why not we show them our budaya sopan santun? Senyum bila depa pandang. But don't bagi creepy smila eh! Help them when they needed. Kalau tak dapat tolong minta maaf. 

Okay lah, jemah nak sambung menikmati cuti ni ha. Selamat bercoti buat yang cotiii! Sapa kerja, selamat bekerja! 🤗🤗🤗

Lagi kasar daripada garam kasar

Hai korang! Well, I'm here again. Nak bebel something nih.

As korang tahu, aku dah tukar status jadi anak yatim as my ayah passed away bulan 3 dulu. Things changed. Aku, kawan-kawan aku, surrounding, semua ah senang cerita.

Bila aku ada title anak yatim, kawan-kawan aku blames my mistakes sebab status tersebut. Nak contoh tak? Well, this agak kasar, bahkan lagi kasar daripada garam kasar yang kau tenyeh dekat ikan bagi hilang bau hanyir ikan tu. 

Here we go, dia orang pernah kata; "Dah tak ada bapak, buatlah cara tak ada bapak."  Lagi? Boleh.... Dia orang pun ada juga kata; "Patulah dia macam tu.... Diakan tak ada bapak!" 

Well, teruk sangat ke aku tak ada ayah? Kalau ayah aku ada, confirm ke aku tak teruk macam tu? Kenapa kena libatkan ayah aku dalam kesalahan aku?

Bukan senang bergelar anak yatim weh. Surrounding bukan kena adapt dengan kita orang, tapi kita orang kena adapt dengan surrounding. Memang tak selesa. Tapi ye lah... Kita semuakan manusia, bukan malaikat. Iyer dokkk?

Al-Fatihah to my late ayah, Wan Zulkifli bin Wan Ismail

My little Wishes

Alhamdulillah, I'm realized that I'll turn 18 next year. I guess that is few steps exiting the teenage world. Watching the skies always changing, I know that I never change. Know what, I read my childhood diary that I've been writing since I was 10 or 11 years old. And yes, the old me just the same me now. 

Me never change, so do my wishes. There's few wishes that I've been wishing since I was little. I randomly pick 10 of them. And here there are:

1. I wish I could make my family proud of me every single second.

2. I wish that my father will always be there as my shield

3. I really wish that I can be with the one who loves me, in paradise

4. I wish I could stop badmouthing about anybody 

5. I wish I'm not sinned

6. I wish I has peers that love me.

7. I wish the world is peace

8. I wish the whole universe is happy.

9. I wish there's no misunderstanding ever happen 

10. I wish I'm not here.

All these 10 little wishes of mine are the same wishes that 11 years old me and present me wishing for. I thought that I'm different when I'm little, but nah... I admire how the skies change it's look so many times a day. And I also admire how I didn't change too😂😂 I don't remember 11 years old me ever wished for those things. Luckily I wrote some weird diary with shaking boat of grammar. Don't even mention about the handwriting 😂😂😂😂

Sahabat dan Kawan

Assalamualaikum, hi korang!~ 

Terasa nak pok pek panjang jap ah😂😂 Mula eh?

Macam aku pernah tulis sebelum ni, aku ni simple je orangnya. Prinsip dalam hidup aku pun simple. Aku bukannya jenis yang suka bersosial tahap Mark Zuberg buat Facebook untuk berkawan. Aku jenis kawan semua orang. And aku punya definition untuk kawan pula is orang yang kita boleh sembang pumpang sampai itu pokok kasi goyang lah😂😂😂 hahaha, yelah.. Orang yang boleh borak lama ah, macam tu ah... Kira sesiapa je lah boleh digelar kawan bagi aku..

TAPI! Bukan sahabat dunia akhirat. Seumur hidup aku, aku pernah jumpa seorang je yang aku boleh panggil sahabat dunia akhirat. Which is my lovely darling makcik paling shomelll, Siti! 

Haaaa, shomelll kan???

Well, definition untuk sahabat dunia akhirat bagi aku apa lak? Bagi aku, dia tak perlu tanya apa masalah aku. Sebab aku bukan jenis share masalah, mentioned before yang aku jenis suka pendam enn.. Siti ni macam tu lah, dia tak tanya apa masalah tapi dia soothe aku. Dia ajak aku hirup fresh air, ajak pergi window shopping ke, pergi keluar dari tempat yang aku terperuk lah.

Lagi satu, sahabat dunia akhirat bagi aku ialah orang yang tak whining buruk aku dekat orang lain. Contoh macam aku ni jenis cakap kasar, dia tak akan pergi kat orang sana cerita yang aku ni dah lah tak lawa, cakap lak kasar nak mati. Ha.... Siti akan cakap yang even aku cakap kasar, dia tahu aku ni jenis macam mana. I won't cursing except the word 'sengal' , 'bengong' dan yang perkataan tak berapa carut ah.. She knows me well☺️☺️☺️

Aku mengaku yang aku jenis cakap kasar, cakap lepas. Tapi semua tu takkan saja2 weh. Mesti ada sebab kenapa aku cakap kasar dengan someone. Selagi boleh slow talk, aku slow and steady. Tapi kalau dah campak mentos dalam coke, memang berbuih cito ehh.. Kalau aku minta tolong, jawab boleh atau tak. Bukan api-apikan permintaan aku. Macam, aku minta tolong perlahanlan suara, jawab boleh ke tak or at least tak nak pun, tell me why. Bukannya lagi menjerit-jerit. Kawan, biasanya macam tu lah.. Sebab anybody can be friends kan?

Disebabkan aku pindah, jarang gila jumpa siti.....😞😞😞😞😞

Bila aku cuti baru aku hang dengan dia. Rindu weh. Rindu Siti ... I wish she is here with me....

29th Sea Games Kuala Lumpur 2017

Assalamualaikum, how you've been? Hope all goin' fine!

Okay, before this I've wrote that from the ages I've been to Bukit Jalil for my mornings jog. All of that are before the Sea Games construction in Bukit Jalil started. I remember that 1 evening I decided to jog there and its closed for the construction work. Very frustrated back then.

But when the Sea Games started, I go there again for cheering our athletes not for jogging lah.. Ramai kot...😂😂😂 

Honestly, I've never ever had sing our national anthem with a very proud feeling or sing it out aloud dengan ikhlasnya. But when our national anthem played in the stadium, automatically I sing our national anthem very loudly out of my chest with the full proud feeling bursting non-stop. Very proud of our athletes. Even we get the bronze, I cheer them with my whole body terloncat-loncat with the jalur gemilang while shouting "Malaysia" very loudly and proudly. 

On the final day for athletic, our two men for high jump didn't do well on the evening. But they managed to get the gold. Good job, good try from them. I saw that before every single jump they do they need some cheer. When I see that they ask we to cheer for them, I stand up clapping very loud till my palm pedih gila😅😅😅 But I think it worth it because our athletes know that Malaysian always with them and cheer for them.

One thing that cath my eyes is our Rayzam. The man that turn botak as soon as he get 1st place. He pays his nazar with botakkan rambut dia. Know what his hair was fabulous gila! Serious lawaaa!! When he come out, I notice his hair was reaaaallllly different from others. It waves smoothly and it not too shine nor too dull, it just too right on point! When he runs for testing I guess, he shout shortly. And I shout back to reply his shout lepas tu I cover my face with bendera sebab the whole row pandang aku. 😅 😅 well, I try to bagi semangat je... But when he shouts, his face gila nervous weh! Aku siap jerit "baca doa! Selawat banyak2! Jangan nervous!"😂😂😂 Alhamdulillah, our first gold on that day in athletics achieved by him.

Yang paling best time dalam stadium tu is WAVEEEEEE! During wait for the ceremony start, we fams macam bosan, cause they take to much time. So we together rise gituwww, buat wave! The whole stadium join it even ada part of the stadium sikit orang, but they also masuk weh! We did 3 round I think. That part was LIT!🔥🔥🔥

Malangnya, I get to join event in Bukit Jalil only. Because othe venue are just somewhere I didn't know🙈 nama je duduk KL! Maybe tahu tapi quite far to travell with LRT. Pergi Bukit Jalil ni pun balik malam. It quite dangerous, plus aku pun seram balik sorang2😂 even dah biasa or what, that feeling never fade out! My mak also pesan to baca ayat kursi semua tu so that I feel easy little bit maybe...

Lasty, congrate to all athletes, and to all who participated in 29th Sea Games 2017. Taniah Malaysia dan Taniah Malaysian! Thank you for all hard work, surely proud of it as a Malaysian 😌❤️🇲🇾

I Took a Nap

Guys, now it almost freaking 3 a.m. and I'm still fresh like after a cold ice bath! Duh!

Just because I'm now tanned about 3 tone darker just because I did working on site for 2 weeks in a row. I'm struggling to get my not so fair skin tone back by applying neutral mask stuff. I just made a turmeric  mask mixed with various other stuff that I had in my kitchen and I know it good for skin whitening and repairing. I budget that the mask will dry off by 30-40 minutes, but it is not. Then I expecting the mask will dry in maybe another 30 minutes, which mean total 1 hours. Guess what, it is not fully dry even after the freaking one hour! 

And, that how I decide to take a short nap while waiting the mask to dry off. I started apply the mask around 9 p.m. And I wake up from my nap, it was about 10 to 11 p.m. The mask dried and started falling apart, I quickly go to bathroom and wipe it off. Splash my face with cold tap water. And..... I AM FRESH LIKE I SLEPT LIKE A BABY!

My mom just asked me why I didn't sleep yet.